
Deb |
steph |
MOM |
MOM |
Deb |
I can clearly see your smile.
I can deeply sense your gone.
As I wake in the morning,
I can feel the loss of you.
As my mind drifts, I remember
your charm and your utter
happiness.
I anger and rage against
powerlessness, I cringe at the
future missing you.
My heart bends as I recall
your willingness to belong,
your desire to be accepted,
your need to be involved.
I feel total regret as your
presence no longer passes
mine and as any chance to
connect with you is no more.
I feel hatred at the
circumstances you chose and guilt
that I feel hatred, my ears seek
out your laughter and my mind
swarms with your memory,
I deny that it will
one day seem distant, that my sorrow
for you will fade, you are now an internal
piece of who I am, you have imprinted
on my soul , I have changed into a
person who has lost you and am forevermore
missing you. As I take each breath
it is you I am inhaling, as my heart beats
so many more times it is for you that it continues.
Dec. 2007
Mom |
MOM |
Sometimes I sense a little flutter.
Like a shadow swiftly slipping by.Or I hear a silent gentle murmur.Like a soft whisper from out the sky.Sometimes...I hear you call my name.Or clearly see your face before me.And I feel that you are with me still. Then peacefully...I come to know
As I am thinking happy thoughts of you,you, my son, are thinking of me too.Loving memories fill my aching heart.As dreaming dreams of what could be. Or might have been, if you were here. Until the piercing pain of losing you Comes tumbling down on trembling fear. And clearly once again I hear you say. "But Mom...What if I had never been. You could not then in LOVE remember me."
Alayna & Ri |
Daddy |
I once knew a man, Who gave love at his best, Who did what he believed was right. I once knew a man, Who suffered uncontrollably, Who found out how much he was loved. I once knew a man, Who gave everything he could, Until he couldn't go on. The man I once knew, I will always remember, As my daddy. I love you wherever you are. |
Marcy |
Mom |
I needed the quiet so he drew me aside.
Into the shadows where we could confide.
Away from the bustle where all day long
I hurried and worried when active and strong.
I needed the quiet tho at first I rebelled but
gently, so gently, my cross He upheld and
whispered so sweetly of spiritual things
Tho weakened in body, my spirit took wings
To heights never dreamed of when active
and gay. He loved so greatly He drew me away.
I needed the quiet. No prison my bed,
But a beautiful valley of blessings instead
A place to grow richer in Jesus to hide
I needed the quiet so He drew me aside.
Steph |
dad |
My youngest son ...
D is for devotion, caring and kindness
A is for admirable, heart of gold
N is for naturally, intelligent soul
I is for immeasurable love
E is for excellent talent and grace
L is for lovable warming smile
Danny, i love and miss you so much. I will never get over the loss of you. See you in Heaven.
Love, dad.
Marcy |
Deb |
Deb |
When I drove past your house, where you'll never come home, when they turned off the lights and said your nevermore, I remember.
MOM |
Deb |
Dan, I am looking for a sign from you, I search they sky and the land for a glimpse of your presence, I want to see you everywhere. I want to hear your voice and relish in your laughter and your infectious enjoyment. I miss you. I miss knowing you are here, miss knowing you are my friend as well as brother. So many times each day my mind drifts to you, towards your past, our past, you as a child, you as a husband and father. My mind skips to the future, a future missing you. How hard and sad that will be. I am looking for that sign, that you still exist somewhere and somehow, I will know it when I see it.
shannon thompson & samantha harris |
Debra |
Dan, I am trying to place in my mind a picture of you walking away, turning back to smile and wave to me, with a look of contentment and peace surrounding you. With this seed of your image to grow in my mind I pray to some day find this plant has blossomed and grown into a healthy thriving memory that will block out the weeds of sorrow.
As time goes on without you and as seasons change our lives as they were before you left us are as gone and empty as your being, our memories of your gentle, kind and infectious soul will sustain our hope that someday we shall meet again and embrace each other for eternity.
Dan my heart aches for you and I would gladly trade my life for yours if it was possible, I would sell my soul to return in time to stop you from leaving, for one moment to make it all go away, I feel so at loss that I can do nothing, so betrayed that I am without any ability to change this and so dark spirited that you felt so alone and hopeless that this path you chose.
Lindsey says you are her angel, I believe her, I hope you can see now that the overwhelming love for you existed and that we all miss you, I hope you are free of pain and anguish and filled with light and love.
Remember we love you with all that becomes us and your memory and your children will see us through.